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BEL 311_SPOT TALK (love story)

assalammualaikum and a very good afternoon to our respected lecturer Madam Norfazlika, and fellow friends. on this glorious afternoon, i would like to give a talk about my story, my past which could be the advantage to you guys and me as well, insyaallah. love. my past is actually about the puppy love, not a true love. i am strongly believe that, we live in this world just for once, so, i want to live this life happily as i was influenced by the korean drama love story. haha. eventhough it end up with sad scene, but they do have the sweet memories. so, i insisted to have such a sweet love story that time even i know there's a bitter. here's the story. i was 13. i dont even know what love can be define. one day, a friend of mine, tell me that his friend 'likes' me and ask me to be his gf. he insist to. and of course i refused to. as time goes by, he keep begging asking me to be his girlfriend. andddddd. on december, i accept him. stupidity occured. we were in a relationship for about 6months. along our relationship, we never met, never holding hands, never have a kiss and so forth. we were just on the phone every single second. without i know, he had 6others girls behind me (such a playboy berjaya). the most weird thing was, the girls know i am his girlfriend of their boyfriend. one of his girlfriend is my bestfriend since i was 9. finally, BREAK UP. as i said, no matter what, i insist to have such a beautiful love story even it end up with broken heart, sweet memories is there. but, my story, my love story, my past end up so badly. no sweet memory and broken heart at once. so, i cant accept those written to me. whenever people ask about, ''have you ever in a relationship?'' i said ''nope, never. i dont find the one.'' i keep lying to everyone. my bad! for 5 years i keep lying. no one knows my past. i keep hiding. until the time comes, where someone awake me not to lying anymore, he is a friend of mine, payal. he said, ''sampai bila awak nak tipu semua org? sampai bila awk nk tipu diri sendiri? dah kenyataan. terima je. ada hikmahnya.........'' since then, the story is not secret anymore. this is my past. this is the reason why i dont have a boyfriend. i just afraid of having one. last but not least, for girls, do not easily fall for guys, they have 1001 reasons to cover their mistakes and finally you will look like the one who make mistakes, and for guys, girl's heart is like tissue, dont make them cry. there are some girls who never cry in front of you but they hold grudge on you. believe me because the proof is here, me. (:

Dear Ex Boyfriend, i have song for you. 

JAR OF HEARTS

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all thats waiting is regret
Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting a jar of hearts
Tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

Ive learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting a jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

It took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?
Running around leaving scars
Collecting a jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Dont come back at all
[x2]

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

P/S : sampai sekarang, he keep begging me to be his girl of reason, i love you so much, you are the first love. wtv !

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